balancing act

pain pain go away
I wake up every morning, finding myself alone. I go downstairs with no one in sight, no one to say goodmorning to. The only living thing at home is me and my dog. Mom left, and she took my brother with her. It's painful, to me and my brother. He's two, he can't be in this much pain. I will do anything to make you feel our love, I will do anything for you not to be deprived of a family. You got a mom, dad and a sister, which under some circumstances, is a very difficult situation. One day, everything will be alright, every bit of pain will go away. I got you sweetie pie.

i can hold my own hand
We rode on that bus for more than an hour, It seemed like forever. He seemed like a stranger, I looked at him but he looked away. Thats when I realized I am the only one who can look after myself. From that time on, I started to hold my own hand. I joined my hands together into a tight clasp. Its the only hands I can hold forever.

Happy Birthday from a happy heart!:)

Coz it's your birthday I am allowed to make you feel giddy. It's actually 11 so its not just your birthday, it's also our monthsary which i'm starting to fail counting coz there are too many numbers and you know i'm bad at math.

For the past few years, i tried to gather my thought on why i love you. Often I find myself asking over and over again coz I can't still find an answer. I just love you. But after all the hell 2011 gave me, I know why I love you. It is because when everything else fails, you're there. I sob and cry and you wait for me to tell you whats wrong and without a word I know you are trying to dig through your mind what you can do to make me feel better. Honestly, nothing will make me feel better now but with the thought of you being there for me for almost 5years is enough to go on with our life. I learned to let go of pain and anger because of you. You proved me that everyone get pass every shit life throws em. I know I am not the only one who's going through rough times, I know you are too and I am telling you that I got you through thick and thin, you know that.

I know we won't be celebrating your birthday on the exact 11th but we will celebrate on the weekends and I wish it will be with our closest and dearest friends who went through hell with us and celebrated good times with us.

Hope I could spend your next 80 or 90 birthdays with you. I wish to make you happy everyday and I swear not to make you feel alone. I wished upon a star and the moon gave you to me. The sky could never be complete without you. I Love you too much until now and it's a little hard to believe but we are living proofs that love really is true, undying and forgiving.

I Love you today, tomorrow and for all time.

I'm counting the days til we're 27.:)

Gadgets Magazine October 2011 BTS

Let me take this post as an opportunity to say that our October 2011 cover girl is by far the best. She's authentically nice and beautiful. Sharing you all BTS photos of how much fun we had while shooting Bela.

I don't have too many photos coz I didn't have my camera that day, these photos are by Patrick Ilagan of Gadgets Magazine.

Gadgets Magazine October Issue with Bela Padilla

Model Bela Padilla
Photographer Erwin Barleta
Hair and Make-up by Gold Sergio-Magtoto of Make-up by Gold
Styling M.R. Gavin
Art Direction Benjamin Arnold and Michelle Callanta-Toledo

Cover dress by Jaz Cerezo
Clothes, Shoes and Accessories by Forever 21

Shot at Ninyo Fusion Cuisine

Special Thanks to:
Chef Nino Laus
Chollo LagdameoGadgets Magazine October Issue with Bela Padilla

Bela Padilla for Gadgets Magazine october

Gadgets Magazine October Issue with Bela Padilla

Model Bela Padilla
Photographer Erwin Barletta
Hair and Make-up by Gold Sergio-Magtoto of Make-up by Gold
Styling M.R. Gavin
Art Direction Benjamin Arnold and Michelle Callanta-Toledo

Cover dress by Jaz Cerezo
Clothes, Shoes and Accessories by Forever 21

Shot at Ninyo Fusion Cuisine

Special Thanks to:
Chef Nino Laus

Carla Laus

Chollo Lagdameo

Jaz Cerezo