i'll bid goodbye to 2010 with a silly grin on my face

2010 has been the worst for me. It was hell actually and I'm glad its over.

2010 made families deceived me, friends leave me and drama took over me. It was a train wreck.

So i'll bid goodbye to everything that had hurt me and just hope for a better one.

I've looked back this one time and tried to forget everything.

I forgive those who have hurt me, let go of the people who deceived me, forget of the pain and the troubles. It's time to move on.

And without all the shit, i wouldn't be here and what doesnt kill me makes me stronger.

hello 2011, game on!

hello loves, happy day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVES!:)

from working together, we became best of friends. and it never changed since then.

You are just simply wonderful PAUL DELA PERET JATAYNA.



Today is the 21st birthday of loves, if any of you are wondering about his age. We are about the same age and same zodiac sign. and maybe thats why we get along.:)

I don't know how to start this, but because you have been one of my greatest friends I would have to thank you in a way.:)

I Love you loves, and you know I will always be here for you. I can say millions of reasons why you and I are friend, another million on why I love you, and another million why we are inseparable.

from lookbook shoots, to special events, to parties and to anywhere: you know I'm always there for you.

After all the drama we've been through, I know there are things that we still have to handle, more pain and adventures.

Though there had been distance between us, you still stay close to my heart. And you know I'm just a text away.

I'm happy that you have been able to find someone who also makes you happy.
I'm proud of who you became and proud of the future you'll have.

I'm happy that you have been able to find someone who also makes you happy. I'm proud of who you became and proud of the future you'll have.

Thanks for being there in little parties.

just like my brothers jolly birthday.

Thanks for fooling around, you make me smile.

Just like how you always know the right things to say to make me feel better.:)

I know we understand each other, and I love the way we are so much alike.

You are like a brother/sister to me. haha!

We are so "whatever", we don't have plans when going out, thats why we're a little crazy and unpredictable.

You are the nicest person ever, and don't change a thing coz thats what separates you from the rest.

You are like a boyfriend to me, always looking after me and being there for me whenever i need you.

cheers to more parties, and more fun.
we are young and free, lets live life.:)

cheers to more clothes and shoes!

we can have millions of reasons to be happy, and being friends with you will always be one of them

you and pat are my comfort blanket, you make me feel like im your little sister.

You know i'm always here to cheer you up.

I love you loves and cheers to more dates!:)

I won't wish for more clothes and more shoes for you on your birthday.
I only wish you peace of mind and clarity, because I know we have lots of things in our minds right now.

and don't forget what I told you, okay?:)

again, I love you dear!♥ always!

on this day i'll leave it all up to a silly palm reading from the past

Or did I say this just because. or have i said this too many times before?

I read a couple of things from my scrapbook last night and I stood there stunned from a little prediction I got from a palm reading. "You'll fall madly in love and you will fight like there's no end" And i did, until now i'm still in a battle to fight. Everyone knows how I feel with this person, no question to that. I defined love by his name, life by his name. And I have forgotten how to live and love by myself. It doesn't really matter, I am happy and no doubt to that.

Maybe there were lies, but I have never lied on how I feel. I cried when I felt like it, I laughed when I needed to burst it, I smiled when i felt sweet, I loved.always.

So cheers to everything, for not losing hope, for not giving up and for every battle we have won.

I wanted to raise you up, your belief and love. Everything is surreal and we wouldn't stop.

I never wished for someone like you, but when i opened a gift that fell from above. I got you, not knowing why or how. But I was glad, it was you. my special gift. And i won't ever throw you away.

You are like the light in every sidewalk, You give a little direction when everything goes astray.

When everyone left you behind, i'll stay by your side. When everyone alienated you, I will still be here. Just like before.

We needed some time to rest, time to sit down and talk. And everything went into a flashback. You and me on that lonesome road.

Now,again, lets make it happen. Fall to each others arms and free fall some more.

I can’t fall every time

Every day, I fall in and out

Rain falls down my window, and there are so many things that make me as human as I am

Coz we are vulnerable to pain, we tend to feel each twitch, each gasp, and each pinch

Nothing else in the world will be enough to shield us from all the pain.

When you make a mistake, I didn’t mind

That was the right thing to do, to build walls around my heart

Stopping each arrow you tried to launch

You are my forever but we can’t be like this together

Fall and fall, no end

Fall and fall, no stop

Fall and fall, to nowhere, to out there

On the middle of the streets I lay, no heart, no dreams

I kept something inside of me, strength that will forever be

Could you stop for a while, I will just catch my breathe

Or even I have forgotten what that is

Could we take a shortcut home, skip the pain and drama

Or even go fast track to all the stops.

I can’t tell how much I have felt

Only pain that I have dealt

Oh could we go halfway

And travel again on the second hay

I cannot feel nor walk nor play

Let’s just stay together although out our day

How to be an artist, a repost from 101 bird tales

"whilst you are developing a practice, a key component in that process is your own curiosity. This might appear obvious, straightforward, naive. Yet curiosity is a major strategy in developing an individual voice.

• be curious about your process
• be curious about yourself
• be curious about your inner state
• be curious about your feelings

instead of the blunt instrument of just always doing. Investigate the open, seductive, fertile realm of curiosity.

• investigate
• make connections
• do research
• be curious

don't try to control, that will be useless. Just -

• watch
• observe

think about what being curious would mean for you.

• more time?
• more space?
• more focus?
• more leisure?
• more research?
• more exhibitions?
• more people?
• more life?

count backwards every day 1000-0 and in that time let your curiosity roam.

creativity is a tool for the re-assembling of reality. It doesn't work to deadlines. It needs room to grow and that space can be a place of waiting. We assume that time on a bus, waiting for some-one to arrive, a train delayed is lost time. Perhaps it's just the universe telling you that you need to so nothing.

seek out opportunities for waiting. Be curious. Watch and wait for what is happening. Look for spaces for being yourself.

• the view
• the park bench
• the journey by train
• the queue
• the office on a slow Friday afternoon

These are good places to bring your awareness to yourself and anything that brings awareness to your inner self, will encourage your own artist."

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Well hello to all artists out there!