I wanted someone to write about me like this

I've pictured him in my mind over and over. My memory is a bit hazy but I can still remember patches of my dream. Scruffy hair, plain shirt, khakis and some loafers. He writes and is a hopeless romantic. Maybe I have him in my mind this way because I wanted us to share the same sentiments. I wanted us to not feel anything but make stories about it, I wanted us to hurt and dwell together, I wanted to us to go all "Emo" together. Because the best thing in being sad? It's being sad with someone with you, with someone who can feel what you feel and not force you to stop right there and then, to not force you to be happy even when the world has turned its back on you. I wanted him to tell the world how every word I spoke gave him the energy to go on, how I passed by made him fall even more, how I hurt him but pushed him to go on and all the things only he can tell the world.  I wanted someone to write about me like he never knew life outside life. I wanted him to write and make me fall and cry at the same time. 


And these are some parts of Vince's Life that I loved. And I want someone who can write about me this way....
 
Vince: “I found myself enchanted by the way she bites her lip, and the way she touches you when she talks, small things like that. By the time we finished talking, it was evening already, and I still wanted to go on talking to her. That’s when I realized that this girl was something special, that she was like no one else I knew…That she was simply wonderful. She was smart and funny, and that turns me on more than anything about her. I like her because she’s a little kooky. I like her because she’s stubborn. I like her because she can be such a bitch. I like her because she laughs too loud.”

“Maybe I wasn’t ready for this. Maybe she wasn’t ready for this. Maybe she would hurt me or maybe, we would hurt each other. And the beautiful reality of it scared me like no scary movie ever could.”


“As anyone in a relationship knows, you’re bound to get hurt sooner or later. The good news is you get over it.”

“People change all the time, that’s the problem. When people are together, they keep track of these changes, and adjust, make sacrifices or grow together. But sometimes people change in different directions, and the distance just grows.”


“Years from now, maybe we won’t even be talking to each other. Maybe, we’ll both have someone else. Maybe, we’ll be married, and I’ll look back at this unforgettable day and remember every detail of how she looked.”

“…Because everything would be different, we’ll say goodbye and return to our lives, without regret.”


"What's love? It's like Fireworks. You know how fireworks are always a surprise? It was like that. Everything was magical, and just when I thought it couldn't get any better, it aways did get better until I thought I would explode from joy. And then it was over."

From Vince's letter to Andrea: "How could you leave me when you promised you'd always love me? You were supposed to make the more difficult choice--that's what people in love do. You ripped my heart out with your li'l piece of news But hey, buddy, you always do that."


"We've both gone too far to go back. You've changed. And I've changed, too. I realize that now. I don't love you anymore. I know you don't love me anymore. I don't love you anymore, either. You stopped a long time ago."


"I guess it's all really for the best. Because now, I won't be holding on to the past, holding on to our yesterday, waiting for something that won't ever come back."

"Some people think loving is a waste when it doesn't work out because you can't take back what you've already given. But I don't think it's like that. You're a part of me."


"the thing is, life is nothing like the movies...Somewhere between the two of us, something broke and we couldn't fix it. We tried. we only ended up hurting each other more."

"She said that I had taught her how to dream."


"She was older. Her face had lost her youth. There was something harder in the line of her cheek, something more cynical in her eyes. We had both grown up, discovered how the business of living could ever be. Yet she remained positive, hopeful even, and always beautiful in more ways than I could ever comprehend."

"Because you're in outer space. you don't know how high you are. You have no clue where you're going. Because you can't see the tracks."


"Andrea and I will always be different. We attempted to understand each other. And we did, or sometimes, we do--and that's the beautiful part. But it's always a struggle."

"When it's right, love isn't difficult. It's the easiest thing in the world. All the differences and hardships don't matter, and there's only one answer to every question."


Vince: "I saw my life flash before my eyes as if it were someone else's. And I don't know how, but knew with complete certainty how Vince's life ended. It ended with Happily ever after."



All this I'm thinking just because of the books I had to backread, and just to make sure I can still feel.